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Apparently the spirit who's been hanging around my apartment lately did not appreciate my last intended post because I got up for a half a second and when I came back to my computer there was a little message that said, "there has been an error..." uh huh. Let's talk about the spirit who erased my last blog entry then.
Anyone else experience "ghosts"? I know I'm taking a pretty big step forward in admitting this, but it is something that is intricately part of me, so-
I started asking my mother who the people were that were standing around my bed at night when I was about four. My imaginary friend was a lion and scared the wajimmies outta me the first time I discovered him under my bed. I don't really believe he was imaginary.
The first time I ever received any kind of rational feedback about the experiences I was having was when my sister Diane encouraged me to visit a former classmate of hers from the Batavia State School for the Blind. His name was Sam Lentine and both he and my sister attended that school.
Sam also had a gift that most sighted people don't have; he could read auras, among other things. Sam was so talented that he was given a grant by the AMA to research his physic abilities to diagnose and heal illness. One of the things he told me during our reading was that my solar plexus chakra was always open and that was why I had the ability to see disincarnate spirit, or ghosts.
And I'm seeing one right now...the little bugger. This is no doubt the reason my last entry completely disappeared in the flash of a hat...in a manner of speaking. The thing is...I don't know why. It kind of showed up here when I got home from the hospital. One night while I was lying there falling asleep, I saw a ball of white light glowing side of my bed. I felt it was one of the people praying for me, as many were. It was a very strong presence..white and sparkley. Since then there is this softer white ball..sort of playful at times..always like looking over me. It also has some sparkle to it..but it isn't as strong a presence...it's almost childlike. Well, anyway..I need to find some food for supper now.
I'd enjoy hearing other peoples' experiences; but please don't try to perform an exorcism on me. I assure you I am not possessed..it's just the way I am and from what I'm learning, it goes back a long, long way on the German-Lutheran side of the family!(of all things)
so, later alligators I promise I won't tell you if you have dead people following you, unless you want to know! (And I can't see behind everyone, anyway..)
Bye!
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 Underneathe it all
 

The noise dies down. The traffic on the highway dwindles to a car or truck every 20 minutes or so. I can hear my clock ticking, my refrigerator humming away...
I imagine that my mom is sleeping now...so is my sister, my daughter..all the people who might need me. Even my cats are snoring. My own energy levels are slowing down in anticipation of sleep now that I know everyone else is in rest mode. It seems I've been on alert for so long that it's part of the program now. But that's okay. It's what I'm use to. I like being the last one up..have a secret smoke..drink in the quiet..allow myself to think about that "him" that doesn't really exist...well, he exists alright; maybe just not in my universe.
I try not to think about him too much...for awhile..I wouldn't let myself think about him ever...and I do mean ever. I wouldn't believe in him. I wouldn't believe in anything about him. But then something happened..it wasn't the heart thing..it happened before that.
I think maybe the heart attack happened because I let myself feel how much..hmm...how big the empty place was that was suppose to be his. Or something like that..I don't know how to explain it. I have this concept of a him...a knowing. A pair of eyes that I recognise...that will recognise me when they look into my eyes. Eyes that I know so well. A soul that I know as well as I know my own.

I came to a point of having no belief in a soul mate whatsoever. I regarded it with complete and utter disdain...but then, as I said, something happened. It is far to difficult for me to talk about, it rocked my foundations. It changed my life..the entire direction of my life from this point on. It was just one little thing too. One human being in an ocean of human beings, who happened to touch me without even knowing it and yet it was so profound that I have been totally humbled and renewed by it. And I can't even thank them...what a crazy world this is. But that's okay..because I rather think it will come back to them...I don't see how something like that could not.

But..I believe in everything again...thank you very much RKC. And I will always regard you with the sweetest and most loving thoughts. You will always be an angel to me. Just by being you, you showed me the way out of a darkness I was lost in and I found myself in a new light. That's a very cool thing. I love the mysterious ways this universe works in...
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